my agency has been talking a lot about the future lately. and, maybe i am just in a bad mood today, but i have become worn out thinking about it. it is exciting to think about the future and all the new things that it is going to bring. but it is overwhelming at the same time and i see it bringing a large amount of work and hassle to my life that i don't want to deal with right now. maybe it is because i am worried about my own future and not anyone elses right now. selfish to the end.
so tomorrow we are having a learning workshop on blogging. ironic, no? i have known about blogs for what seems like forever. (obviously, you have to if you are reading this.) who doesn't know about blogging and the other great things that the internet has to offer. maybe it is because we are stuck out here in west bloomington, on the edge looking in at all the fun stuff. not saying that i have nothing to learn. i know that i am clueless on a lot of issues. there are ten year olds that know more about the internet than i ever will.
maybe it is because i have other things that i want to be thinking about. usually this type of thing would get me all modivated. ready for action and inspired to do great things. but right now i just don't really care. it may also be because i feel like work is stuff in a funk of not moving forward. there has been talk of moving forward for the whole time i have been here. nothing has happened. funk.
i am however, very excited about my future. looking forward to making our house something great and beautiful and home. painting, decorating, all that jazz. that fires me up. i have great plans for the house. ways to make it beautimous. because i know how great it can be. i just want the time and the money to do it all now. how many lottery tickets do i have to buy to have a chance?
