i am reviving my blog after a long absence. this morning i got an e-mail from a friend chastizing me for not updating. i just haven't really had the writing feeling lately and when i got his e-mail i sat there for a second wondering what to write about... then i decided to wait until the mood struck with the correct emotions needed to write.
here it is, man.
i just recieved a phone call from the architect. he prefaced his story by saying we were going to have to make a change to our guest list. i braced myself waiting to see if someone had died.
"we will now make a change for an invite to read (name here) and guest."
our friends, a couple who we have always gone on double dates with, who we flew to mexico for their wedding almost exactly a year ago last week, who drank with us when we bought our house and who were the only people who knew we were getting engaged besides dave, are separating. she met someone else while he was working long hours at the office. he's known for a month and they were trying to work thru it. but basically she is leaving him. they are still living together and trying to decide what to do with the house. the house that they have worked on together for 5 years. i am guessing their dog will go with her.
it just seems unbelieveble. i can't even comprehend it. i edited their wedding video for them. i talked about it with him a week ago. i can't even imagine how much he didn't want to talk about it when i brought it up.
i have been in awe lately because so many people are having kids. it really is baby fever around these parts. i kept thinking, "are we old enough for kids?" now all i keep thinking is "are we old enough for divorce?" we have friends who are our age getting divorced. deciding who gets what. dividing ascets. it sucks. i don't want to think that people who were so happy a year ago are so not happy now. i don't ever want to be that woman. who find another man and makes someone hurt that way. never ever. does happiness disappear that quickly?
i don't know what to say.
